Should vs Want

6FPS V6#5: May 13, 2024

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April turned into a really busy month, but we got a lot of things done. The daffodils are starting to fade, but the tulips we planted have all bloomed and have taken over along the driveway.

We had the plumbers out for a day, and they installed the new wash sink into the workshop, so I now have running water out there. I continue to not understand how you could install a toilet and not a sink, but that’s just me.

This was also the year I worked with our landscapers on the last (I think/hope) big projects: the bed outside my office was cleaned out last fall, and we’ve now planted it with Huckleberries and ferns. The bed created when we installed the water feature now has ferns and wild strawberry, and when I asked him how to deal with the moss taking over the lawn in the shadiest part of the yard behine the garage, he just laughed, and so we ripped that out and planted it with shade happy plants: Vinca and a few Hostas; we mulched everything heavily as well.

While the driveway is paved, the house is circled by a gravel pathway, parts of which are large enough for a car to drive, but others are more ATV-sized. The gravel ahs been showing bare spots, and so we’ve been talking about fixing that up on and off for the last two years.

So this year, dump trucks showed up and left us four full trucks of gravel, and they brought in a bobcat to haul it around and spread it out.

We initially thought it was about 2 days of work, but by the time we were finished, they were here for the better part of a week. We have one more thing to do: there are a couple of trees needing to be downed in the other parcel, one of which has blocked the walking path, and a couple in the main property that also need removal. That’s going to happen as soon as he has an opening in his schedule again.

That pretty much finishes our plans for things we’d like to do to this place. We had the well people out this month as well, and now have a new well pump (the old one was going on 15 years old, and was showing signs of hitting end of life, and they were thrilled we wanted to fix it before it broke. I do need to schedule the septic folks out, since it’s been three years, and I’ll do that once we have the trees down. And after that?

We don’t really have anything we want to change. So I guess we get to just live in and enjoy this place for a while, I hope. Nothing about the house seems to be close to needing replacement or repair, so unless something breaks — we can just kick back. (knocks on wood)

Although, now that I think about it, at some point we want to replace the window treatments downstairs and in the master bedroom. But maybe fall at the earliest.

I finished my first project in the new shop; I wanted to give Laurie an upgrade to her mini-greenhouse, and so I grabbed a cold frame kit from Amazon, and then built a little cart for it to ride on out of Cedar and some casters

The shop is doing nicely now, although there are a zillion smaller things that need to be done there; I got my dust collection setup operational, and finalized where the tools are placed (for now). That, of course, required at least one re-do, because the first time I tried to use the cross-cut saw to cut down a board for Laurie’s cold frame, it bonked into then storage rack, and I didn’t have clearance. I was able to finesse that, but that meant I had to pull a few things apart and move them around — and to be honest, I like the updated layout better.

The best aspects of the shop at this point is that (a) it’s easy to keep clean and get stuff put away again, and (b) the pile of stuff that “has no home and I don’t know where to put” has shrunk radically. There are still some things I need to sort out, and as I start using it, I’m sure I’ll be changing things, but while it’s taking a lot of thinking and work and re-doing, I think I’ve hit that place where I can work in the shop and not spend all my time stopping to look for something or needing to make room for the project.

One sad reality: I finally convinced myself the lumber storage needs to be in the garage and not in the shop proper. Not really a big deal, and I' also have a three bay shed that I plan to use for lumber storage as well (and ultimately, a drying kiln when I get to that point), but making that call made everything else fit together nicely and work. So next project: a mobile lumber rack, something I expect every woodworker tackles at some point or another, right?

Down the road, I see two additions to the shop/project space. One will be my lathe (that thing that started me down this path in the first place, and a 3d printer. I do have actual projects I want the printer for, so it’s probably next, but I want to finish up a few things first. I’m still waffling between going with a midi-sized lathe or a full-sized one, but leaning towards the mid-sized while I re-learn skills I haven’t used since high school shop. That’ll limit the size of the bowls I can turn, but I think that’s okay and if/when I outgrow it, I can look at an upgrade later.

And now that I have a shop, what do I plan to do in it? I mean, other than build things for the shop… I sat down spent some time thinking about that, and I’ve already got 9 projects on the to-do list, including at least three with “future christmas present” attached to them.

I do plan on doing a full tour and discussion about what choices I made and why soon, so stay tuned.

Vertigo Update

I’m happy to say that the vertigo has settled down after a few weeks of the new treatment (not unexpected that this can take some time). I can sit at the computer and work for a few hours without discomfort again, finally, and I can work out in the shop without worrying about getting dizzy while large spinning sharp things are aimed at my fingers. I know that I’ll have rough spots at time, but the current treatment regimen seems to be working, finally, after close to a year of chasing these gremlins. We’ll see how long this stays stable, or if they’re just off planning a new set of challenges off in some dark corner of my brain as we speak.

Tripping

Nothing scheduled, but I do want to get out for another 2-3 night try to see if it goes better than Oak Harbor did with the vertigo. Currently thinking of heading out to the Gray’s Harbor/Ocean Shores area for some spring birding, but nothing final yet.

The spring birds are arriving; our American Goldfinches are here, and for better/worse we’ve had a flock of siskin’s arrive. I’ve heard the first calls of a Western Flycatcher (formerly Pacific Slope Flycatcher), but no signs of any Tanagers or Grosbeaks — and very few reports of them anywhere in the county yet. The swallows are arriving as well, saw my first barn swallow this week, too.

I’ve got a clear conflict in my photography today. I’ve done very little non-bird photography the last few years, and that bothers me. I find I’m telling myself I really need to get back on that particular horse and start riding again. When I try, though, I find myself unmotivated and my results just don’t impress me.

On the flip side, I’ve been really enjoying getting out with the camera and chasing birds. I was able to get out to Big Beef this week and there were nine bald eagles there hunting and occasionally arguing. Most of the activity was at extreme distance, fund to watch, tough to shoot, but after about 40 minutes a couple of eagles got into it a bit and ended up flying fairly close, and I got a few rounds of decent shots of a couple of them.

This is the classic conflict of should vs want. I should be putting energy into my non-bird photography; but I don’t want to. I don’t really get to pull out the camera that often (although that’s slowly changing for the better), and when I do, I want to relax and have fun.

The problem with “should” is that it often felt like (and is) work: I can pull out the camera and put on my bird lens and go shoot, and it’s all almost on autopilot. It’s low stress (mostly) and relaxing, and I enjoy it. That’s a good thing to have, actually — given everything going on in the last year, having something I can escape into and enjoy has been a nice escape.

A lot of our lives are “should” — we should see the dentist every six months; we should pay the rent and taxes; we should make sure our bills get paid. Much of the time, it’s a bad idea to ignore that should that’s muttering in the back of your head.

But there are times when it’s okay do throw that should into the “later, not now” pile. In my case, right now, trying to organize the logistics for landscape (or almost any non-500mm and longer photography) is complicated and stressful, and the results I get are not to my standards. That all adds up to adding to stress, not removing it, and that’s not something I need in my life right now.

So I’ve come to terms with telling that particular should to quite down and be patient. It’s time will come, but right now, when I haul out the camera, it’s to de-stress and relax and have fun, and only bird photography does that for me.

I think it’s important to, when you are up against something you feel like you should do but you’d really rather do almost anything else, to think about why you feel that way, and what the implications of choosing “later, not now” option. How important is actually doing the task you don’t want to do? What are the risks and potential problems on both sides?

If you don’t pay taxes, the potential problems are fairly massive. If I choose to just focus on my bird photography, the only downside is I’m not generating those kind of images into my collection, and the impact of that to everyone except me is, honestly, non-existent. And for my, it just means I’m not creating that kind of content right now.

On the other hand, the downside of grinding through and trying to shoot anyway is increasing the stress caused by trying to produce content I don’t feel confident creating, and there’s a risk there that it’ll create resentment to the idea of hauling out the camera, and ruin the joy of doing photography completely.

And I think that’s a legitimate worry — some would consider it burnout. That’s a path I don’t want to tread, and so for me, for now, focusing on the fun part of photography is the smart decision, and I’ll figure out when the time is right to expand the range of my imaging again.

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My only camera trip this month was another visit to Ridgefield NWR with Laurie. Light was poor, birds were mostly distant, but I did get a really nice shot of this Tundra Swan, along with some rather average but useable images. I’m hoping to head back down there for a couple of intensive camera days towards the end of January where I can put in enough time to do the location justice.

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